Hello all my blog followers (only 3 I think, but hi to all three of you!). This mama is beyond ready for spring/summer to get here! For many different reasons. I'm tired of looking at these walls and the gray outside, I need fresh air, and need these days to get longer. I honestly think seasonal depression has set in. I have never felt this bad during the winter, but being home all day changes things.
So I have to admit, my whole lifestyle change has gone completely down the tubes. Being pent up inside has totally taken a toll on me and my body. I want to do nothing but eat, and not the good stuff either. Then today we took Cole swimming at the YMCA and I wore a two piece cuz my tankini my boobs about pop out of it, and when I looked in the mirror I was horrified! Holy crap was that gross to see. Then just before I logged on here I decided to weigh myself....and thats what the 140 stands for in the title. How disgusting! And I'm not even pregnant. In a great world I wanna lose 20 of those. Wow...never before have I had to say 20 lbs. It's always been like 5 or 10 max. Not 20!!!!!! I have said this over and over and over and over again....but honestly something HAS to change. It's just hard because Mike doesn't eat healthy and won't cuz he doesn't like the taste of things, so that makes it hard because if it were up to me we would have no crappy food in the house. But he won't go without chicken patties and fries.
Tonight marks my last unhealthy meal and onto a better me. Please leave me comments to help me get through also comment on my FB page. I need the motivation and be held accountable. So please help me out!
Enough crabbin'....last few posts have been crabbin' sessions for me. Onto better things...but gotta get some more flowers made. Lovin' what I'm doing with those! Have a great weekend everyone!!
Friday, January 28, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
This might not make sense but....
This post is going to be TOTALLY random. I haven't written in awhile and I have a million bazillion different things racing around right now....here is goes, sorry if it's too random for you.
Most exciting new yet...Cole is walking!! YAY! He took his first steps last Saturday (January 15th to be exact..lol). And best part is that I got to witness it. I love it. I have been blessed and able to watch him roll over, crawl, and walk for the first time. I can't even tell you how happy I am that I got to witness all of those.
Can I just say, I'm soooooooooooo ready for spring. I honestly think seasonal depression has set in. I have never wanted spring/summer to get here as much as I do this year. Probably because I'm at home and staring at the same walls day after day. I need some sun and need to get myself, Cole, and Ajax outside in some fresh air. It's been really rough and a really long winter.
See...told you it was going to be random.....
I have been busy making more and more flowers. I'm having such a good time and it's relaxing for me. It's great. And I have even had people order some from me! So as you read this please spread the word....and also spread the word about my salon. I really don't want to find a part time job (which was brought up again today). So please help a girl out =o)
Now as for a more serious note I guess...and a personal one...this winter blahs have taken a toll on my relationship with Mike. It's rough. Lots of arguing and stress. And part has to do with not getting out and seeing the sun, yada yada yadda. I'm trying to be an understanding wife and see his point of view on things but it's quite hard. Maybe it's the whole Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus thing, but man we don't see eye to eye. It's frustrating. I know we need to get out and go out on a date together and we say it but really need to act upon it. I feel like we are almost like strangers at times. It's been almost a year since Cole was born and I think we have gone out maybe 3 times...wow..sad huh? Now that I type that and say it out loud we HAVE to change that.
And as to then the having a hard time with personal things, my lifestyle change has taken a back burner. I was doing very well but ended up with a sinus infection. Also emotions are running all over the place. So makes it hard. So hopefully I can get back on track. Going to try to behave the rest of the week.
Anyways...thanks for reading and hope you didn't get too lost and sorry for venting/sharing some of my emotions with you. Hopefully will make me feel better going to bed now. We will see...have a good night!
Most exciting new yet...Cole is walking!! YAY! He took his first steps last Saturday (January 15th to be exact..lol). And best part is that I got to witness it. I love it. I have been blessed and able to watch him roll over, crawl, and walk for the first time. I can't even tell you how happy I am that I got to witness all of those.
Can I just say, I'm soooooooooooo ready for spring. I honestly think seasonal depression has set in. I have never wanted spring/summer to get here as much as I do this year. Probably because I'm at home and staring at the same walls day after day. I need some sun and need to get myself, Cole, and Ajax outside in some fresh air. It's been really rough and a really long winter.
See...told you it was going to be random.....
I have been busy making more and more flowers. I'm having such a good time and it's relaxing for me. It's great. And I have even had people order some from me! So as you read this please spread the word....and also spread the word about my salon. I really don't want to find a part time job (which was brought up again today). So please help a girl out =o)
Now as for a more serious note I guess...and a personal one...this winter blahs have taken a toll on my relationship with Mike. It's rough. Lots of arguing and stress. And part has to do with not getting out and seeing the sun, yada yada yadda. I'm trying to be an understanding wife and see his point of view on things but it's quite hard. Maybe it's the whole Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus thing, but man we don't see eye to eye. It's frustrating. I know we need to get out and go out on a date together and we say it but really need to act upon it. I feel like we are almost like strangers at times. It's been almost a year since Cole was born and I think we have gone out maybe 3 times...wow..sad huh? Now that I type that and say it out loud we HAVE to change that.
And as to then the having a hard time with personal things, my lifestyle change has taken a back burner. I was doing very well but ended up with a sinus infection. Also emotions are running all over the place. So makes it hard. So hopefully I can get back on track. Going to try to behave the rest of the week.
Anyways...thanks for reading and hope you didn't get too lost and sorry for venting/sharing some of my emotions with you. Hopefully will make me feel better going to bed now. We will see...have a good night!
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Too cute
This whole flower making thing has just been a blast! I love that I get to be creative and I really enjoy it. My friend Michelle Sauer, the photographer who has taken all of Cole's pics this past year, has used a couple of the flowers in some sessions she has had this week. They turned out wonderful! She got a few more from me this week, I can't wait to see them. She has been great and let me share a few of them with you. So enjoy these cute and precious little girls! Thank you again Michelle.
Monday, January 17, 2011
Flowers Flowers Flowers
So last week was such a BORING week! I was going crazy, so I grabbed out my little box of fabric and thread and started making some more flowers out of fabric. Then I kept getting more ideas and just went to town. I decided to post a few of the pics on my facebook page...I kept getting comments about how cute they were and that I should open up an Etsy store. Well...that will come some day possibly. But I'm going to start here and post some pics to share with you. Please feel free to let me know your thoughts and share with your friends for they are great for gifts or to add to your plain ol' shirt for the day (if attached to the flower is the pin) or to your purse/tote, or in your hair to make a bad hair day a good one!
Enjoy
Enjoy
Monday, January 10, 2011
Saying good-bye to a pet
I'm going to take an idea my sister had a make a post that remembers our beloved yellow lab Maggie. It was two years ago today that we put her down. She changed our lives in many ways.
First of all my mom was never really a dog person, she wouldn't let any into our homes, not go up to them or anything like that. Then when I was younger I was soooooooo scared of dogs. I knew where all the dogs lived in the neighborhood and would walk on the opposite side of the street to stay away from them. Then in 1995 my parents decided to get a lab. Not sure how exactly it came about but we got one and Mom thought it was the biggest mistake for the first few months. I would not go near this little 8 wk old puppy! Overtime I over came that fear and I have Mags to thank for that.
She was going to be treated like a true pet, sleep in her kennel, only eat dog food, not be on our furniture, etc. Well that did not last long. Soon it was that she was only allowed in the one chair, then ok...will sleep with Mom and Dad's floor (but not in their bed), well again didn't last long. Soon she was running the house. She was up on all the furniture and sleeping right in between my parents in their bed. Also before we knew it she was getting her ice cream at night before bed. She was one spoiled pup who lived a GREAT life!
I will never forget the phone call the morning we put her down. I was getting ready for work and my dad called me, which I found weird since he never called me at that hour. He was the one who broke the news to me, we both cried together on the phone. I wish I was there those last hours, but I was fortunate and said my good-bye a couple of weeks before when we were home. She is in a better place and running free again and eating her ice cream still every night.
Here are a couple of pics I'm going to share with you.
First of all my mom was never really a dog person, she wouldn't let any into our homes, not go up to them or anything like that. Then when I was younger I was soooooooo scared of dogs. I knew where all the dogs lived in the neighborhood and would walk on the opposite side of the street to stay away from them. Then in 1995 my parents decided to get a lab. Not sure how exactly it came about but we got one and Mom thought it was the biggest mistake for the first few months. I would not go near this little 8 wk old puppy! Overtime I over came that fear and I have Mags to thank for that.
She was going to be treated like a true pet, sleep in her kennel, only eat dog food, not be on our furniture, etc. Well that did not last long. Soon it was that she was only allowed in the one chair, then ok...will sleep with Mom and Dad's floor (but not in their bed), well again didn't last long. Soon she was running the house. She was up on all the furniture and sleeping right in between my parents in their bed. Also before we knew it she was getting her ice cream at night before bed. She was one spoiled pup who lived a GREAT life!
I will never forget the phone call the morning we put her down. I was getting ready for work and my dad called me, which I found weird since he never called me at that hour. He was the one who broke the news to me, we both cried together on the phone. I wish I was there those last hours, but I was fortunate and said my good-bye a couple of weeks before when we were home. She is in a better place and running free again and eating her ice cream still every night.
Here are a couple of pics I'm going to share with you.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Happy New Year
Ok ok ok...I know it's the 5th already but been out of routine here. So back on track today. Mike was working days and now today is his first night back at his "normal" shift. So that means I'm back to my normal routine. First of all want to start this post out by saying Happy 10 months to our little man Cole! Crazy how fast it's gone.
Ok now onto some goals for the new year. My sister has been great and together we are making a lifestyle change together. I love it. We aren't necessarily taking the exact same track but something similar. We have different tastes in food and different lifestyles all together I guess. But we are there for each other to concentrate on getting healthy by exercise and changing our eating habits. She did remind me yesterday when I told her I was caving in an making a pizza for dinner, that you can't change all at once, you basically set yourself up to crash and go back to the old ways. Which I was happy she said that. I never thought of that and always was an all or nothing kind of person. So, it has helped me to relax a little and take it day by day. But I have to say I was and have been pretty good today.
I went to the YMCA today and did a Turbo Kick class. It's the second time I have done so and wow...I can feel it already. Tomorrow I'm going to try and get up and get to Body Pump. I haven't taken that one yet at the YMCA but have taken it with my sister at her gym in Fargo. And as I recall I was super sore for a few days, and my biceps were so sore I thought I actually pulled something! But excited to try it out here and wish me luck!
I am looking foward to starting this new year off right and take baby steps to improving myself. Another improvement I want to make is making mine and Mike's relationship back to how it was. Well not exactly how it was, that's kind of impossible, but to where we spend more time together and make myself realize my house will never be clean and take that time to be with him and not cleaning all the time. I need to learn to live in the moment and not worry about the next one.
Well that is my goal for the New Year. Wish me luck and wish you all the luck in your goals you have made!
Ok now onto some goals for the new year. My sister has been great and together we are making a lifestyle change together. I love it. We aren't necessarily taking the exact same track but something similar. We have different tastes in food and different lifestyles all together I guess. But we are there for each other to concentrate on getting healthy by exercise and changing our eating habits. She did remind me yesterday when I told her I was caving in an making a pizza for dinner, that you can't change all at once, you basically set yourself up to crash and go back to the old ways. Which I was happy she said that. I never thought of that and always was an all or nothing kind of person. So, it has helped me to relax a little and take it day by day. But I have to say I was and have been pretty good today.
I went to the YMCA today and did a Turbo Kick class. It's the second time I have done so and wow...I can feel it already. Tomorrow I'm going to try and get up and get to Body Pump. I haven't taken that one yet at the YMCA but have taken it with my sister at her gym in Fargo. And as I recall I was super sore for a few days, and my biceps were so sore I thought I actually pulled something! But excited to try it out here and wish me luck!
I am looking foward to starting this new year off right and take baby steps to improving myself. Another improvement I want to make is making mine and Mike's relationship back to how it was. Well not exactly how it was, that's kind of impossible, but to where we spend more time together and make myself realize my house will never be clean and take that time to be with him and not cleaning all the time. I need to learn to live in the moment and not worry about the next one.
Well that is my goal for the New Year. Wish me luck and wish you all the luck in your goals you have made!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)